Dylan was the perfect sweet little baby that slept all day and never cried at the hospital. The nurses kept making sly remarks saying, "Yeah, well wait 'til you get home..." O.K., they were right.
Daddy's lil' rocker
1 weeks worth of dirty diapers!
Hangin' out in his Mamaroo
Since coming home, Dylan developed horrible horrible gas pains where he just has blood curdling screaming fits. We can actually feel the gas moving through his back all of the time. I am not sure how to prevent it, and yes, I have called the pediatrician. They recommended we stick to the Mylicon drops before and after each time he eats and try to wait it out. We have his two week check up coming up this Thursday and I am anxious to see what they say this time, because we have had a lot of changes since his 1 week check up at the doctor where he was still the perfect, no problems, sweet, little (well, not little... he gained all of his birth weight back and then some! up to 7 lbs. and 10 oz. this time), breastfed (I included this characteristic and you will see why the more you read) baby. It was the day after his appointment where all of the trouble seemed to start happening. Many have relayed it to my diet and made sure I wasn't eating anything that could gas for him such as dairy products, chocolate, acidy foods and drinks like orange juice, strawberries (who knew!), eggs (who knew, again!), etc. The list can go on and you can read of so many food to try and avoid while breastfeeding online like I did. It left everyone and myself wondering what I could actually eat! It's so much more to avoid and worse than when you're pregnant! I didn't have much of a problem paying attention to what I was eating because I was hardly eating at all. I was feeling so exhausted the entire time I didn't even feel like eating. Apparently, this is odd. I guess you should be extrememly hungry from breastfeeding and what not, but I didn't know this. This leads into how the 1st week home has been for me...
Aside from Dylan's horrible gas pains/colic or whatever all of it is, we have had quite the number of issues show up with me since being home. I mentioned not having an appetite, well that was just one symptom of what I
I was placed on antibiotics and have been trying all of the "tricks" to try and get rid of the infection. We have found it to be more stressful, with me having to wake up every 2-3 hours to feed him (in horrible pain while doing it) and then pump right afterwards (in pain while doing it, too.)
I had to make a hard first Mommy decision today and have decided to stop breastfeeding. We have started Dylan on formula today and I am trying to get more rest (yea right!) I called and spoke to the OB and his Pediatrician about all of this and they were very supportive, (while I was crying to both of them on the phone). This was not the decision I ever wanted to make. I wanted to breastfeed my baby. To be honest, I feel like a complete failure and I'm even crying as I type this. I have always thought that if someone else can do it, so can I. I am still very upset and sad about this change, but hope that it will bring a little peace and hopefully, I will see that I made the right decision for Dylan and myself. I now have to continue taking my antibiotics and hope that I start to feel like normal again, as I have been justing making the entire situation worse by not having any rest. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers during this hard life transition, as we are feeling we need all of the help we can get and all I keep thinking is - I want my Mommy!